First and foremost, sadly I only managed to take a total of about ten pictures. TEN! That's it....just ten. EPIC FAIL on this photog's part : ( The day started out with us heading down to the pier on the pond. The water was clear and we could see straight to the bottom. It was beautiful! Philip and I walked over to my favorite spot on the entire farm. For some reason on this day I didn't take any pictures. I ALWAYS take pictures at this spot. ALWAYS! Not last Saturday...what was wrong with me? As we were walking, my phone rang. It was my brother calling me back so I could give him an update on what's going on with me. As we were talking Philip walked away and I lost sight of him. After I hung up with my brother, I looked around for Philip and saw a little speck at the other end of the field a half mile away. So, I started walking. No big deal, huh? That's what I thought.
Some background to tie my story together: Philip and I love the movie 'Cold Mountain.' Nicole Kidman as Ada Monroe, Jude Law as W.P. Inman, and Renee Zellweger as Ruby Thewes make the perfect cast. We are always saying some line or another from the movie to each other. Even the kids know parts of it and can repeat them back to us at the funniest times. I like the book too and think its way better than the movie, but I digress! When Philip and I want to watch a movie, it's always this movie or 'Just Like Heaven.' Don't fault us for being boring!!!!! Anyway, parts of this movie are so poignant and last Saturday Cold Mountain became real to me. Weird, I know!
So I was walking down the field to that little speck at the end of our land. That little speck...the man of my dreams...the father of my children...my best friend. Then I realized I wasn't going to make it. I didn't have the physical energy to make it to him. My body could not move itself any closer to him. Not only was my leg hurting, but my lungs were on fire, the little bit of muscle I have left in my legs was failing me quickly, spots were swimming before my eyes; I was done for. I knew I couldn't sit down in the middle of the field defeated regardless of my body's lack of cooperation. That is not my personality. It sounds cheesy, but somewhere deep inside me I heard this line from 'Cold Mountain,'
"It's her...She's the place I'm heading."
After I heard this and the movie replayed in my head, I was refreshed and actually made it to Philip about 15 minutes later and promptly collapsed on the ground to rest. After I caught my breath I told him what I went through getting to him and that I had felt like Inman trying to get back to Ada Monroe. I recited the lines of the movie to him and he died laughing. Im glad he finds me so hilarious. I don't think he would have found it so comical if he had found my passed out body in the middle of the field at the end of the day : )
Now if you havent seen the movie, you won't know the poignancy of this statement. In incredibly short summary to tempt you into wanting to watch the movie to understand it completely, Ada Monroe is a Southern Belle and Inman is a poor wood-worker who goes off to the Civil War. Ada stays behind waiting for him. Inman gets hurt and goes AWOL walking back to her. It's a fabulous movie except for one part where we always fast forward due to some less-than-stellar adult content.....told you we were boring.
I've never really thought about that particular line in the movie, but for so many reasons ITS DEAD ON CORRECT. When I think of getting to the place I call home, Philip is there. When I think of getting to the place I feel safe, Philip is there. When I think of getting to a place of fun, Philip is there. When I think of getting to a place I can relax, Philip is there. When I think of getting to a place where I am most comfortable, Philip is there. Even when I try to get to the end of the field, Philip is there. What do all these things have in common? They all have Philip. So regardless of the physical location of my husband, he's the place I'm heading.
Beautiful. That's all. You are my hero.
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